Sometimes someone just StAnds OuT.

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Most of the time I am unconscious about wether I am seen or not. Wether I am invisible, go below the radar or stand out like a soar thumb. Sometimes I feel my mouth and it feels stiff, like why isn’t it just comfortable and relaxed into a smile. Sometimes I feel the smile and it makes me happy… like… OH! I am smiling… I am happy… yes this is good… happiness. I can right now smile about that and think of being happy and become happy!
Sometimes with family members who I really want to be loved by, I notice how I may appear to them, perhaps how unlovable or in a good moment they are smiling at me and I know they are feeling good about us talking or good about themselves and that reflects back to me. They give me a gift. So I guess I bounce back and forth between those situations of being unconscious and wrapped up in the world and really present or absorbed in how I appear or fit in at the moment. Hmmmmm. What about you? Let me know.